Tree-ally bad!

The beautiful rubber tree...
from my balcony i always used to see...

in rains it looked like a majestic umbrella...
in the suns it used to provide shade like a good fella... :D

many a rainy days and evenings i spent...
looking at the raindrops fall off it's shoulders magnificent...

and it hid from prying neighbors...the door to my room...
now privacy has taken a sudden fall...and gone to it's doom..!! :O

for my beautiful green friend has been felled by the corporation...
no end i can see to my grieving...this empty sensation..!!

my friend was cut down...oh how he bled white blood...
tears came non stop...it was like a flood..!! :(

oh dear rubber tree...we won't forget thee...
in our minds and photos u will live for...eternity..!! :)

Judgemental...

Judge Mental...


Dunno when they became so judgemental..
tiz inexplicable why they are themselves in denial...
Just wish you saw me as the complete person that I am...
And not judge me based on the past..and all the misunderstood glam...

You laughed on me when I was making mistakes..
Jus wish you'd taken the effort to help me put on some brakes...

It angers me to be scoffed at...
to be looked down on and laughed at...

As if you never made those mistakes...
Then why act like such big fakes...?

I just hope I am able to always avoid being so judge-mental...
I'd prefer to make my mistakes instead,small or monumental...

Just wish you'd warned me like he did at the onset itself...
what use is your knowing me,if you are absorbed only in entertaining yourself...?

Empty wishes fill my mind as I'm tempted to cut wood with metal...
But my brain warns me...doesn't let me be....judge-mental..!!


-- to those two judgemental 'friends' of mine. :)

Stupid Heart...

the foolish heart


when the heart is thawed...
It tends by love, to not get over-awed..

Even in a true, new love affair...
It starts with a cautious step from the first stair...

What is the worst though...is that it can't truly give...
Pulled back by it's urge to survive...to not lose again the urge to live...

It knows that being over-cautious might bring it to an abrupt end...
But then this time it says, I won't bend...

The biggest and funniest irony though here lies...
There is a search...yearning that one for whom it can bend...in it's eager eyes...!

Obsession

Obsession..


Why is it that life is an unending obsession..?

The soul yearning for that unknown joy..so much,that we turn a blind eye to what we have..?

Why is the meaning of happiness connected to other people..why is it so DependenT!??!!

Had it just been satisfied with the solitary sanctuary..wouldn't it be so much simpler a life..wouldn't it just be so simple!

Empty wishes...fill the horizon..making the present joys,shrink in comparison!


:)

Lofty Love...

is this a dream or the truth....?

when you hold my hand...and take me on an ecstatic chimera...

no matter how hard i try...i see nothing....but ur enticing aura...

we talk for hours...laugh on stupidity...

finding you...was nothing but a serendipity...

my preoccupation for you with every meeting increases...

your beautiful smile, to enchant me, never ceases...

and all this when i was crest-fallen...

you put life in me...like bees sow flowers...with pollen...

and yet you elude me to no end...

so near...yet so far...new fantasies to me you lend....

hold on to this moment...for it won't come back...

time, for once, i wish to lose ur track...

and then we get back to our secluded, divergent sentience...

which is but a facade...to secretly wait for the hysteria...

living silently our own simple existence...

waiting to be back with you...to experience again...the euphoria!!!

Imbecile...

who are you to help me....

to see the spirit torn to be free...?

who are you to solve my problems paltry or saturnine...

trying to seem so caring and divine...?

where were you, when i needed abutment...

and all i got was an exiguous resentment...?

only i know what it is to be me...

not from my problems ever i flee...

try as hard as i might to fathom...

lie i do, in the lowest substratum...

for those dreams are just an illusion...

caused by the mirage of a consummated delusion...

answers so meagre...inconsequential...incomplete

means but i find, are barely replete...

and then life goes on...purport less...

as i exist an existence...seem so worthless...

who are you to judge me...

only i can spoof my life...

oh don't you trudge me...

for it has but led me...to yet another strife...!!

:)

[ Glossary - 

saturnine - Grave ;

abutment - support ;

 exiguous - meagre. ]

Inspiration..

shame....guilt....ride high...

as yet again i sigh....

curse my bad luck as much i can...

but know i do, things didn't go as per the plan...

no distractions...diversions this time...

only this guilt..making my existence sublime...

said a wise soul...ride too high and you shall fall...

these beautiful things are not for you to enthrall...

determine your path of recovery...

and hope it will lead to fruition's discovery...

a wounded soul...battle-withered it lies...

yet it yearns to fight...with dreams it flies...

give me my sword of success...

not today shall i digress....

give me courage my noble friends...

coz this is where the feebleness ends...

pray for me..for i have on my mission left...

so that i bring back my accolade...leaving none bereft...!!!

:)